Mmm. Still working on that layout. XD I have the main page finished for the most part. The sidebar is incredibly small. I have to change the subpages so that they match and are readable. Kind of hard to explain. HEY, I have been busy-ish, so yeah. I love excuses. I've been spending the last few days just hanging around Rick. ♥ Oh yeah, I am unsickified. :P Also been being an insomniac. I usually go to bed around 8AM or so. AND I have a killer headache, so I'm going on to bed. *gasp* (02:28AM)
So, I haven't updated in a while. Ah fuck me. Not literally, of course.
Rick came home last night. I don't know how to describe the situation. I guess we're together. He asked me to take him back last night. He has no idea how much he hurt me. :/
Been working on a new layout. TABLES! :o No frames or popups. 'Tis amazing. *nods* I'm having a few problems with it, but I'll edit it and change it up a bit. It won't be as I planned, but it'll do.
I caught my brother's cold, so I couldn't go to David's yesterday. I was supposed to go to his sister's birthday party too. :( She wanted me to go. ^^; David's mom tried to give me relationship advice the other day. "All men are dogs" sums it up pretty well. *ka-shrug* Going to Jessie's next week. (02:31PM)
New layout. Yess. Popups. Sorry. I need to update some content already! Anyway.. cmnt plugs.
Mother set up my iTunes account. I get $20 a month for downloading songs. :D Downloaded like eight songs thus far.
I'm going to go to the movies with my bestest friend ever, David, this weekend. Hopefully. Then, Friday, I'm going to his house so he can burn me like 12 CDs and watch comedies and scifi movies. MOVIE DAY! I'm going to Jessie's to stay the night and go to her party the next Friday/Saturday. Whee. A bit of social activity. :) Rick's coming home Friday too. I should talk to him then. Not sure though because I don't know what time I'll be home from David's. I'm supposed to go to the mall again with my family before the end of the month too. Wow, I have things to actually do. *gasp* AND, I'm still planning stuff. Oh, I rock. (11:54PM)
Yesterday was Paw's 59th birthday, so mom, Billy, and I went to Walmart and picked him something up for his birthday. While we were there, we got a new printer/scanner. Its so pretty. XD I bought Stephen King's book 'Salems Lot. I haven't really started it yet. Anyway, we spent the whole day at Nanny's. We cooked them dinner and an applesauce upside down cake (Paw's favorite). Also went to go see Grandma Edna. Wasn't really that eventful. *shrug*
Talked to David today. Michelle (his ex girlfriend he's trying to get back with) called while he was on the phone with me, so we hung up. She called me with him on three-way. It was kinda akward. David's the only person (besides family) to get me to talk. I was pretty much silent on the phone. ^^; She's really nice though. She had World History with me in 10th grade. We never really talked that much though. I added some content here while I was on the phone with them. hehe.
I haven't heard anything for Rick since Sunday. He's probably forgotten all about me. =/ I really wonder what's going to happen.. *sigh* So much has changed. *shrug* I don't like thinking about it. Oh yeah, thanks Mig for the comment. It was nice. :) (10:25PM)
The awesomely sexy Jess has decided to host me. :D Thanks Jess! ♥ I shall upload everything I have after this entry. I'll work on the content that's not up later on today.
The parentals, brother, and I went driving around today. It was actually ok. We went looking to see if we could find a place that had a part that we need to fix our van. Dad found it somewhere and just went off to buy it so that Rick's uncle can put it on. We still need brakes. Boy this getting expensive.
Thought about the whole situation with Rick today/last night. *sigh* I'm half way over the fact that it probably won't work out. David helped me a lot by talking to me last night. So did Jessica when she talked to me on AIM. Thanks Jess-o. ♥ I'm not sure what's happening between me and Rick anymore, but I'm going to take advantage of this break. I can't just sit around and wait on someone right now. I'm a teenage girl for goodness sakes. I need to get out once and a while and see people. I deserve happiness too. I've finally realized that. Don't get me wrong, I'm usually happy with Rick and I love him, but the last few weeks have been so hell-ish that I'm not sure either of us will ever be happy together again. *sigh* (4:22PM)
The awesomely sexy Jess has decided to host me. :D Thanks Jess! ♥ I shall upload everything I have after this entry. I'll work on the content that's not up later on today.
The parentals, brother, and I went driving around today. It was actually ok. We went looking to see if we could find a place that had a part that we need to fix our van. Dad found it somewhere and just went off to buy it so that Rick's uncle can put it on. We still need brakes. Boy this getting expensive.
Thought about the whole situation with Rick today/last night. *sigh* I'm half way over the fact that it probably won't work out. David helped me a lot by talking to me last night. So did Jessica when she talked to me on AIM. Thanks Jess-o. ♥ I'm not sure what's happening between me and Rick anymore, but I'm going to take advantage of this break. I can't just sit around and wait on someone right now. I'm a teenage girl for goodness sakes. I need to get out once and a while and see people. I deserve happiness too. I've finally realized that. Don't get me wrong, I'm usually happy with Rick and I love him, but the last few weeks have been so hell-ish that I'm not sure either of us will ever be happy together again. *sigh* (4:22PM)
Rick and I talked again today. Apparently his feelings below didn't change. And now, we're on a "break." Right now I'm not sure how I feel about that. At first I was sad/depressed, now I'm somewhat relieved. I'm not sure why. I think I need this space too. He says that he's going to come home for a while and then go up north with some of his friends. I suppose we're dating other people. He said that he didn't want to break up, but he needed space. He needs to figure some things out. I think I need to too. I'm not sure we feel the same way about each other. Its like a different kind of love for both of us. He said it feels different for him and I'm still head over heels, madly in love with the boy. When he called the first time, he said that he almost got hurt today over thinking about us. I don't know what he thinks about us. Or me for that matter. Every single day seems different. Or at least it did. I'm kind of afraid that I might find someone else. While we were having these problems, I started thinking about us a lot. I love him a lot and I love being with him, but I wonder about how things could have been. Like, what would my life be like if we had never dated. I would probably still be friends with a lot of people I left behind. I dunno if I would be happier or not, but I do wonder. I wonder about how things could have been if some things were different. I don't know anymore.. I really don't. (10:04PM)
So, I made a new layout and this site hasn't even had a duet. Ha, that's insane. Ah well. I need to become a layout whore like Jess used to be. :P I have to finish getting content together. *nods*
Rick called a while ago. Everything between us seems fine again. He seems to feel bad for making me feel like I did. I'm glad I talked to him. I can't wait until he's home.. I miss being around him and just knowing that he's here. *sigh* I love him so much. He doesn't even know. (08:32PM)
I spent Monday through Thursday sleeping over at Angie's (Rick's mom). I helped her pack and move some stuff to their trailer. Talked to Rick Monday and Thursday. :) He gets his cellphone back next weekend. He seemed happy that I was staying with his mom. I don't think he liked it very much that her new boyfriend is sleeping over and they're planning on moving him in with them. I shouldn't have told him about that. >_> Now his mom is mad at me. We have his cat here. I added new pictures to Yahoo and there's a few of her. She's cute but incredibly bitchy. XP Anyway, I just wante dto update. I'm gonna work on getting an index page going. Maybe update around here a little bit. These layouts such. Especially the johnny.html one. It gets on my nerves. (07:11PM)
Well, well. How long as it been since I've had a weblog? Jeez. Anyway, if you didn't know, I used to own Bombflower.org. It died around December 30th and was hosted by the lovely Lilly. I intend to buy a new domain whenever I get some money. At the moment I am unemployed and broke.
My boyfriend went back to MO at the beginning of the month and should be home before March. Him and his mom are moving into a trailer within short walking distance of my house, so you know what that means. ;) Kidding. My mom found out we had sex (because I had to ask for a pregnancy test) and now she's super pissed, so I don't know how often I'll get to see him when he gets back. ^^; We'll see.
Anyway, I need to find a nice free server to put this on and then apply for hosting somewhere until I get a domain. I've been looking at places. I hate free servers. How do you .tk people deal with them? (02:05PM)